Fail.

Fail -to disapoint the expectations, to miss performing an expected service or function, to be deficient in, to leave undone, to be unsuccessful in passing.


So ive recently been going through quit a bit in my life. Not the worst time of my life of course but definatly had some ups and downs. with school,men,friends,ex friends, etc. When you fail at something .....wether it be school or relationships it sucks. recenetly i feel like i failed a lot. a couple classes. which isnt like me. in the least bit. and with that fail i failed myself, and with that fail i fail the many people who always say " you can do it!" " we know you can you always do!" . Im not sure why im writting about this to be honest i dont liek the idea of feeling sorry for myself. Ive always said if you want something bad enough you can get it. But shit. i wanted to do well and i tried my best with the resources i have yet still.

But neverthelessi guess its time to brush of the dirt get off the ground and figure out how to patch things up. Goals. I gotta get my shit together. I HAVE to get my car a license. find a temporary job until summer. Get my grades back up next semester. get out of this small community college that ive attended for going on three years.

Growing up isnt easy. But thatll be my next blog. till later readers.

keep the peacee

Just some Questions.

I spend alot of my time waiting. Waiting for a ride, waiting for class, waiting for a friend, waiting here and there. i frequently people watch. Now it sounds creepy and i guess it is in a way but here are a few questions that come across my mind throughout my day.

Dear middle aged man driving your red ford focus, why do u feel that because you are in your car no one can see you digging up your nose?

Dear women, Do you know how funny it looks when your puttin on mascara and opening your mouth at the same time while driving talking on the phone and lighting a ciggarette?

Dear gays, Whyd o you think its okay to prance around and ruin the rainbow for everyone? i mean i get it im gay your gay we know that we dont have to wear rainbow everything to get the message out. thats why god gave us our gaydar sheesh.

Dear macomb library students, why do you all pretend like youre doing work in the library when everyoen knows that your on facebook, youtube or stareing off in oblivion? Bhahaha. true fact. even the chick at the help desk is on facebook!

This wasnt a very good blog but they are questions id like input on. comment serisouly. do you have questions you frequently wonder about? Comment and ill tell yah what i think :)

Marvelous Mondays

You know Ive been thinking lately. God has a problem with Mondays. think about it. Have you ever looked forward to a Monday? the only Mondays Ive enjoyed were the Mondays that i didn't know it was Monday. Well nevertheless let me begin my rant about how wonderful my Monday was. I woke up this morning half pass 6. laid there till seven. i realized my transportation to school would be there in ten minutes! Now i had to scramble! i was fully prepared for the call i knew i would have to rush but i was ready for it. So i jump outta bed get to the bathroom. first thing first. brush teeth. look in the mirror to do a hair check. meh" good enough!" i thought. i get to my room and for some reason i always pick my shirt before i pick my jeans. Do you do that? jw. anyway i picked out a gray sweater with and gray and purple argile sweater vest. then i picked out the only pair of clean jeans i had left. To my dismay they were a size 28. i knew full well that my ass would not fit into them but shit i went for it. OK so fitting a size 30 waist into a size 28 jean is almost impossible. its like...like when you re a kid and you have that box you have to put the shapes in, its like putting one off those plastic squares into the circle slot . Doesn't work. Well somehow after laying down pushing my stomach over and rolling on the bed for 3 minutes i got them on. YAY!!!! i thought. so i 8 minutes has passed i have two minutes to get my homework and out the door. i found my homework got my phone. sprayed my hair and walked outside. It was a nipply Monday in Detroit Michigan. sirens could be heard in the distance. i took a big cool breath of air. I continue to walk down my porch. they are six steps. one.two. BAM!!!!! Out of fucking nowhere. I'm going down like i two dollar hooker. not only did i proceed to fall down my stairs i ripped the pants. Not only did i rip the pants but my entire left thigh is exposed. So i had to run back inside find new pants. But there were none clean. so i did it.......i dipped in the the high school drawer. i might as well of wore leggings today. that how tight my pants are. But Never the less what a Monday.

ciao!

Things I think are exceedingly bothersome.

So my dear friends. Let me first off start by saying thank you for veiwing my page! : D my name is Charles Shaw; but you can call me Carlos! So for a while now ive been very undecided about what i wanted to blog about......My life, my school, the men in my life(what a joke),current events, politics, etc etc. It occured to me today that i have many a pet peeves. And for some atypical reason I thought itd make a wonderful first blog. lol.

Ok ONE. I can not Stand when people are like suppper lazy and step on the back of their shoes because they dont wanna put them on all the way. Like COME ON!! lets be serious here. Shoes are NOT cheap! at least cute ones : p and frankly i think its just flat our rude to take a perfectly beautiful pair of shoes and botch um all up. I get it . its your money and your shoes but shhheesh give the shoes a break! and plus you look silly walking around doing that! oh oh ! i just remembered something that is crazy.

k. next pet peeve. I am in my third year of college and i admit im no freakin english teacher. though oddly enough i wanted to be for years.....anywho. I was reading a paper my friend wrote. ( we all know that papers should start with either " a quote a definition or a fact" attention grabber...real hard concept i know. ) BUT SO HELP ME HAYZUES! If i see another paper with the attention grabber as followed ill take a number two pencil and stab my eyes. " According to the Websters dictionary ...................."................................................................. REALLY?thats the best you could come up with. Now im not saying its horrible to start of a paper like this...its fine..if ur in the sixth grade dude. Now i know im coming of a little brash but the websters dictionary is not the best you cancome up with in college. ...just saying.

ooooh GROCERY CARTS WITH A SHITTY WHEEL man is that not the most annoying thing. you always grab the cart and start pushing and as soon as you realize the front right wheel doesnt roll right you debate to yourself " do i go put it back or just continue and deal with it" normally i choose deal with it. until i reach aisle two and realize that it was a horrible idea. Dont they have someone to freaking fix those things.

alright so i feel like im kinda rambling but hey im new to the whole blogging thing so gimme a break alright? But last pet peeve of the night. okay if you didnt agree with any of my other pet peeves you have to agree with this one. So there you are having a conversation with a friend on the phone and then outta know where silence. just for a moment. then you start talking about something embarassing or just plain stupid and they say something and you realize your on flippin speaker phone. DAMN YOU SPEAKER PHONE! . putting someone on speaker phone while others around with no warning Not cool. cmon it sux and it happens to everyone. "

"C'MON take me off speaker phone"
"why??"
"What do u mean why?"

ughh dumb convo is it not? so imma wrap this one up sorry if its a babble fest leave comments and tell me some of your pet peeves please! i definatly want to hear about them!

Till the next blog folks!!

Muah, Carlos